Right now, I'm experiencing this heavy aching feeling inside. Yet I don't know why. No painful memory haunts me at this moment. And yet, this sort of emotion strikes me for no reason.

I'm thinking this is because of the medicine I'm taking but, if so, why only now? I've been taking this medicine for a long time now.

Right now, I want to cry so hard for no reason. What am I crying for....? Hahaha.... I must be going crazy. I feel so goddamn depress without any excuse. -sigh-

Ah! Now I'm crying! Why... why can't I stop...? I... I have to stop now.... otherwise, my parents might see me. They might send me to an asylum. Oh, how it will tarnish our family name.

And shouldn't crazy people have an excuse why they're... well.... crazy? What excuse should I give then...? Teenage angst? Hahaha.... how stupid. Even if I'm going mad, I'm still trying to think on what face to show.... what a strange madman I am.